“As My Piano Gently Weeps”

It’s funny how some of the things we keep mean so much to us because of so many sweet memories. I feel as though I’ve gotten rid of so many things over the years that have meant so much to me because I simply had no room for them where I lived or the kids didn’t want them. It breaks my heart and today I lost another “something” that meant so much to me for so many reasons.

Growing up I had always wanted a piano. My parents didn’t have the means to get me one but that didn’t stop me from wanting one. My great aunt had one and used to let me go into her house to play it. It was her piano that I taught myself to play on and I loved every moment that I could steal away from my cousins and siblings to play it. It was from then on that I always wanted a piano.

When my daughter was about 5 years old I bought her one. She took lessons for years and when she wasn’t playing it I would play it every chance I could. I remember all the siblings after her sitting there as toddlers hitting the keys, thinking that they were “playing the piano.”

So many memories, so many pictures of that sweet piano.

It’s been at my parents house for the last few years because the place where I was living simply didn’t have enough room. Now that my parents are moving I was faced with a choice of selling it, putting it into storage or giving it away. 

I thought about it all night and decided that it was time to let her go. And I did. She was sold this afternoon and will be going to her new home this weekend.

My heart is broken.

Yet I keep reminding myself that it’s just a “thing,” and the memories and pictures of it will remain for a lifetime. Yes, I’ll miss sitting down and playing it at my parents house but life is always changing. And here I am faced with another change and losing something else that meant so much to me.

I know that there’s so many  more important things going on in the world today that this may seem trivial and unimportant. Maybe it is but while I try to help the world be a better place, I had my own moment of losing something that I loved.

Maybe it is unimportant in the grand scheme of things but it was important to me.

And I’m grateful that I had it in the first place.

Wishing you love and light,

~Anne Dennish~