“Overwhelmed and bittersweet” are two words that have been in my vocabulary these last few weeks and there’s a good reason as to why.
My parents are moving out of our childhood home and I’ve been spending much of my weekends and days after work packing them up and selling their furniture. It’s bittersweet finding so many memories of my childhood and selling off furniture that we all spent time around as a family. The packing can be overwhelming and it’s bittersweet in knowing that this house was our connection to the Jersey Shore.
I will be leaving my job at the end of this month and have decided to spend a few months in Delaware to promote my new book and write the sequel. In addition to that I will continue working with the publisher on the final edits for my new novel, “The Mind of a Heart ” which should be ready for release in the next few weeks. I’m also working on creating a weekly podcast and motivational/inspirational virtual group.
I’m okay with all these changes but they do mean that I will be moving away from my beloved Jersey Shore in May. I’ve lived here all of my life and can’t imagine being so far away from the beach and the local towns that I love but it’s time for change. These changes are overwhelming at times and most definitely bittersweet.
I have to remind myself to enjoy what time I have left at the Jersey Shore and focus on the excitement of the next chapter in my life.
And I am very excited about where this next adventure will take me.
I’m saying goodbye to feeling overwhelmed and hello to feeling grateful for the “bittersweet” because that means that it all meant the world to me.
Today is the first day of my next trip around the sun and my mantra for this year is “61 And Get It Done.” Time is marching on and while I have no plans of leaving this Earth anytime soon, time is becoming even more precious. I have so many books that I’ve not yet published, so many places that I want to visit, and so many things that I want to do. It’s time to “get them done,” and I’m making a promise to myself that I will.
So as I celebrate another trip around the sun today I count all the many blessings in my life, am grateful for all that I have done so far in these 61 years and have faith that everything else I want will get done.
And I’m grateful for every beautiful morning that I wake up and have a chance to do life better than the day before.
Today I say good-bye to 60. I do so with love and gratitude, taking all the lessons that I have learned right along with me into 61.
“Here’s to another trip around the sun, here’s to an awesome 61!”
Every so often Mother Nature smiles down on the Jersey Shore in the middle of winter and gifts us with a springlike day. The temperatures were well into the 60’s, baby blue skies and plenty of sunshine! And what do all us locals do when we wake up to such a day? We head to the boardwalk and walk the beach.
Yesterday we took off before noon and strolled down the boardwalk into one of my favorite towns, Asbury Park. We had lunch at the Seahorse, which is located in Convention Hall, complete with live music. We were surrounded by many vendors at the Valentine’s Market inside the Grand Arcade. It was the perfect day!
It seemed as though everyone was on the boardwalk, sitting on the beach, or strolling through the town. What a breath of fresh air in the middle of winter to be outside without a coat and hat, just a hoodie.
It was a wonderful surprise to have a day like that in the middle of winter but it was no surprise to wake up this morning to freezing temperatures, gray skies and light snow.
I remember when my oldest was about two years old and eating some of my home baked cookies. I asked him, “ Can you taste all the love I put in there?”
To which he replied, “I can! You put a lot of love in there.”
And so began the phrase of “I can taste the love” from all five of my children with every meal I made or cookies and cakes that I baked.
There were times when I made their favorite food that they would say, “You put extra love in this! I can taste it!”
I was reminded of this precious tradition that began over 30 years ago when I spoke with my Noah last night. They asked me if I still had my old Better Homes and Garden Cookbook (which I do!) and could I send them a screenshot of the banana bread recipe. I told them that I would and I did.
Such a simple thing yet one that is so precious.
I can still see those sweet little faces eating a chocolate chip cookie, the chocolate all over their mouths saying “I can taste the love!”
And you know what? I always did put the love in whatever I made for them to eat, no matter their age. It meant so much to me to see how happy that made them and I hope someday they’ll understand that it made me even happier.
Once in a while there are those rare moments as adults that they’ll still say that they “can taste the love.”
I texted Noah the banana bread recipe last night and reminded him to put the “love” in it.
And they said that they remembered that.
It was a “be still my heart” moment and I’m grateful for that.
You never know when you’re going to step into your next adventure.
A small group of us went out to dinner on Saturday night in Asbury Park. The dinner was over the top delicious and the company was even better. I couldn’t have planned a more perfect evening.
After dinner we walked across the street to a very cool store called “The Severed Wing.” As I walked to the back of the shop there she was, a woman that I’ve seen on social media known as “the lady on the corner.”
And she is “the lady on the corner,” an interesting person who I was grateful to have met and happy that she snapped this picture of us. She has her own style of photography and she can be found on “the corner,” taking pictures and meeting people. I felt like I had just met a celebrity.
You never know where you’ll find your next adventure…
Do you ever have a day when you just want to cry? It could be for a million reasons or no reason at all. It’s just a day that you feel sad for everything or for nothing and I’m having one of those days.
I’ve been trying to talk myself out of this mood all day but I’ve decided to let it have its day and have its way. It was taking too much energy to try and push myself out of it so I decided to just go with the flow of emotions.
I feel as though I’ve been fighting back the tears all day and I’m sure that the moment I leave work they’ll come spilling out.
Sometimes we need to have a good cry to let “the healing waters flow!”
I also know that “this too shall pass.”
Sometimes it passes with the listening ear of a compassionate and empathetic friend.
Sometimes it passes while sitting in stillness at your “happy place.”
And sometimes it passes with a hot bath and a good night’s sleep.
Give it some time.
Be grateful for the happy days and even for the sad ones, because each day that we’re here to feel them is a gift.
I’ve got “restless soul syndrome” again. It could be that I’ve been sitting in this “comfort zone” for too long knowing that it isn’t actually all that comfortable! Or it could be that I’ve been sitting in the same “box” for so long that I need to step out of it!In other words, I need a change. A change of scenery, a change of heart, a change of perspective. In any case, it’s a change of some sort I’m sure.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not unhappy but I do feel restless, and I’m working on stepping out of my comfort zone and out of the box!I’ve been working hard on my novel, which I hope to have released by early spring and I can’t begin to tell you how incredibly happy I feel when I’m writing. It’s a feeling of pure joy for me and this new book is one completely different from all the others I wrote before. I’m hoping for the best for this “baby” of mine. I actually wrote this novel 17 years ago and have procrastinated long enough in rewriting it. The story needed an update and that’s what I’ve been doing. My intention is to have it in the hands of the publisher by March and on the market by spring.
I’m hoping this book brings exciting changes in my life, ones that I’ve wanted for a long time, but I’m doing more than “hoping” and “working” on it.I’m allowing myself to “see it, believe it and achieve it.”
Sometimes “restless soul syndrome” comes around to “shake you up and wake you up!”
I believe that it’s helping me finish the book. It’s helping me see it as I picture it to be, helping me to believe in the changes it will bring, and helping me do what it takes to achieve it.