“When A Rainbow Heals A Heart”

I was upset when I went to bed late last night and tossed and turned for 

hours. My heart was hurting terribly and I just couldn’t shut off the thoughts running through my head. I gave in and let the tears flow, asking myself why it all happened? Why do people intentionally hurt one another?

It was then I decided to have a long chat with God and the Universe. I begged for an answer as to why this happened and to understand why it hurt so much. I prayed for a sign. 

I decided to turn off my phone in the morning and have my coffee on the lanai and I’m grateful that I did. I looked to my left and saw this beautiful rainbow. There was no rain in sight and rainbows never appeared in that part of the sky. They’re always to the right of me.

And just like that, there was my sign. The rainbow is a sign of promise, hope and love and I really needed the reminder this morning. It was a sign that God and the Universe were very much present in my life and that I wasn’t alone.

Did I get my answer as to why the pain of last night happened? No, but after seeing that rainbow I know that the answer will come in time, just as time will heal my hurting heart.

Wishing you all love, light and rainbows,

~Anne Dennish~

“Thank you, Eddie Money!”

I keep hearing that song by Eddie Money called “I Wanna Go Back” and after the other night of feeling hurt that’s all I wanted to do. I wanted to go back in time and “do it all over.” 

But we can’t and I know that but sometimes I can’t help thinking about what I would have done differently, yet you know why we think that we’d do it better? It’s because we know better now. We’ve learned valuable life lessons throughout the years and hopefully, have learned to love ourselves in a way that we didn’t back then. 

And I think that’s the key as to why we sometimes look back with sadness and regret. We wish we knew then what we know now but we all know that that’s not how life works and I believe that the biggest reason is that back then we didn’t know how to love ourselves, we were taught to love others and put others first.

Picture yourself 10, 15, 20 or more years ago loving yourself unconditionally. Imagine who you would have been if you had. Our decisions and choices would have most likely been very different.

But we can’t go back. We can only move forward.

The past is the past. The mistakes and decisions we made then are long gone and forgiven. We’ve learned that taking care of ourselves is just as important, if not more, as taking care of  others. We are of much more value to others when we can value ourselves.

There are days that “I wanna go back and do it all over” but I can’t and that’s okay. I know how much I’ve grown because I can look back and know how I would have done it differently. I’ve learned from my mistakes and I’m sure I’ll make more moving forward  but that’s life. We learn from our mistakes. 

Here’s to all of us being a work in progress. Give yourself permission to “go back” for a moment to remind yourself just how far you’ve come.

And you’ve come a long way.

We all have.

Thank you, Eddie Money, for an awesome song that’s a reminder for all of us!

Wishing you love and light,

~Anne Dennish~

“You’re More Than You Believe You Are”

You go through life as a wife, a mother, a husband, lover, and the title of the career you have, yet sometimes we forget who we are. I’m not one to “label” myself or anyone else, but the truth of the matter is: we are who we are.

And we shouldn’t limit ourselves to being just one thing; we should embrace all that we are.

And we are so much more than we believe we are.

And a few days ago I was reminded of the person I love to be: a writer.

Life can get busy and as you know, I’ve spent much of the last month on vacation, on location, and spending time with my kids. I’ve done some writing but not as much as I would have liked.

I’m still in the throws of cleaning my flooded basement and getting some rest from endless weeks of traveling. Laundry is getting behind the eight ball and dishes are piling in the sink. The refrigerator needs to be refilled and doctors appointments need to made.

And then something important happened…

I had a lunch meeting with a client I’m ghostwriting for.

And I was reminded of something I love to be: a writer.

And it was an incredible feeling.

I felt reborn and back on track. I felt energized and ready to create and write.

Throughout our meeting of note taking, working, talking, and organizing, he said one thing to me that made all the difference in the world: “I leave this all up to you, after all, you’re the writer.”

Really? I am? I know I’m a mom, a significant other, a friend, daughter and sister, but a writer?

Well, sir, yes I am!

It’s not that I forget that I’m a writer but I forget how it FEELS to be a writer and that feeling is one of passion. I forgot how the passion feels, how incredible it feels, and how awesome it is to be doing what I love to do every single day of my life: WRITE!

I was exhausted after all the traveling and cleaning in the last few weeks, but today I felt rejuvenated. All that tired energy left my body and I felt as though a very high energy replaced it…and I’m so grateful that it did.

Sometimes we all need a reminder of that feeling of doing what we’re passionate about.

Sometimes we need to be reminded that we’re so much more than we believe we are.

I’m grateful for that meeting.

I’m grateful to be able to write every day.

And I’m grateful to remember what it feels like to be a WRITER!

Take a moment today to remember all that you are…because you are so much more than you believe you are!

It’s a good thing.

Wishing you love and light,

~Anne Dennish~

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Photo courtesy of Rob Contreras